Memoir Coming Soon: From Grief to God

From Grief to God: Toward Spiritual Renewal in Our Time

When I was four years old, my father died by suicide—and so began a lifelong journey to move from loss into presence, meaning, and the sacred.

I built the life my era rewarded: a Yale B.A. in philosophy, a PhD in history, and a distinguished career in medical humanities. I was a man of reason in a culture that worshipped reason—yet beneath it all, I was a child still waiting for a light that wouldn’t go out.

It took seven decades, a body in collapse, spiritual awakening, and an encounter with angels to see and feel the light within.

What I discovered was what many quietly sense but rarely say: that grief--when explored--can become a doorway. That angels are not relics of a pre-scientific age but living messengers. That the world needs to recover the sacred in nature, now more than ever.

My Journey to the Angels is the story of my passage from grief to God. And a map, perhaps, for others.